Steadfastness

As of late, I’ve been feeling pretty down when it comes to God. I feel like I’ve never really struggled with my faith before, but now I know what “hard” feels like…the feeling when you start questioning everything you thought you knew about God or even His love. It’s sad to say, even all He has done for me, all the blessings I’ve experienced, all the trials He brought me through…why do I still have these feelings of doubt? Sometimes, I feel as if I’ve went through one trial too many.

Interestingly, today’s devotion was on Job- and of all people in the Bible, Job knows that feeling all too well, and maybe we can find ourselves relating to him…but the biggest difference between us and Job is that he was a man of integrity. Job never deserved all the sufferings he went through. He lost everything from family to having bad health, and he didn’t even deserve any of it. He was a good man…and at times, he did feel like giving up too. He wanted God to end his misery, but at the end, always turned his focus around- something I’ve been struggling to do myself.

The best part was the end- knowing that Job was rewarded for all the things he had endured with a steadfast heart (like James 1:12). But wow. How much courage does it take to say- “I know that my Redeemer lives, and that in the end he will stand upon the earth” ? I’m the most average girl ever- I’m not particularly strong and have the most amazing stories about my faith…but I am (and should be) striving to be steadfast, just as how apostle Paul constantly reminds us.

I’m not perfect- so far from it, but thankfully, we belong to the One who loves us regardless.